Marathons are cranky SOBs

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The race may have been rotten, but the support was spectacular.

Where to start with this post? How about the long and short of it? My marathon on Saturday was awful. Again. I am a broken record and I am sick to death of this tune.

In spite of perfect training, perfect weather and a perfect course, my body did what it has done all too many times now, and that’s shut me down before I even got started. My plan for the day had been this: Miles 1-4 at an 8:10-8:15 pace; miles 4-13 at an 8:00; miles 13 on at a 7:50-7:55 pace. How’d that play out? A very conservative start, actually–mile 1 in 8:28. The next three were where they were supposed to be, and then the next six where they were supposed to be. But then I hit a low–legs starting to feel like pace was too much, at mile 10. Who gets tired at mile 10 in a marathon? Took a gel at 12, but it didn’t matter. The pace slowed from there and continued to slow until the end.

It really was a deja vu of CIM–the same early bonking and the same mystery as to why. When I compare these last two marathons to the two Richmond marathons I ran in 2009 and 2010 where I hit a 3:32, I can’t find anything different in terms of how/what type of nutrition before or during. The only difference I can point to is that my training was so much better this time through, which makes it that much more disappointing.

Even worse is that I feel like a crackpot. Seriously, if I were reading these race reports over and over again from the outside, I’d just think the runner was delusional about his/her capabilities. But the incredible training I did said otherwise, so I stand solidly against that idea.

I’m finding myself back at the drawing board again. I don’t want to be here. I want an obvious mistake that I made, or an obvious cause for the bonk, but I can’t find one. Honestly, I’m mad at my body. The posts by some of my favorite bloggers where they wrote a letter of apology to their bodies? Right now I want a letter of an apology FROM my body.

I waited a day or two to write this post because I knew it would come out just the way it has, angry. But that’s where I am right now and I see no reason in sugarcoating it.

Final thoughts–in spite of it all and in spite of how this post sounds today, I do have perspective. I had amazing friends waiting for me at the finish line. I had a husband and kids who cheered me on and gave me hugs at mile 23 when I didn’t want to take another stupid step. I may not have a cooperative body, but I have the bigger things in life and for that, I am blessed.

 

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  1. Darn it! I am sorry that you had that experience! I know you probably feel betrayed by your body. I know there is nothing I can say, but hang in there; there are other fish in the ocean!
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  2. You are amazing! I have had SO many bad races (back in my swimming days) that I completely understand how you feel. I wish I could give you advice or make things better. I’m really glad you wrote this post- anger and all. Marathons can be a bitch no matter how good of a runner you are. Don’t let this race make you question your capabilities. Sooner (hopefully!) or later you will have one hell of a race and you will forget all about this one. Keep believing in yourself and know how many people are supporting you whether you have the race of your life or finish last. Keep your head up. At the same time, there is nothing wrong with being angry.
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  3. I am so sorry Amanda. Marathons are such heart breakers! It seems so unfair when we train so hard and we don’t get the race time we wanted. You have every right to feel angry and upset. At least you did have your amazing family there for support. Hang in there. I think you are pretty fabulous and inspiring. *HUGS*
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  4. Oh no! I would love to tell you all the great super supportive things that I was offered this weekend (bad race for me too!) because it’s true, and kind and what we need, but I also get that it JUST SUCKS! I’m so very sorry to hear that this marathon didn’t go as planned. I’m sending you huge hugs! This is what my 4 yr old said to me yesterday; “Mama, you are a great runner. You are fast to me!” And so I say to you, YOU are a GREAT runner! And you are fast to me :) No matter what kind of marathon you run, you inspire me every day.
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  5. I totally feel your pain. I dnfed at Eugene and finished but not well in Portland. Both I trained for well and was totally prepared for but my body just didn’t do what it was supposed to. Sadly I don’t have any advice just know you’re not alone and marathons are unpredictable beasts
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  6. I’m sorry that things didn’t do as to the plan, and I, like you would love to see if we (you) can find out why the body wasn’t a pure running machine on the day.

    Don’t worry we have all had those day, and sometimes it’s just the running gods are against us and there is nothing we can do!!

    Now the coach in me wants to asks you 100 questions, but I will only ask you to ask yourself a couple of question: Was the idea to start easy and pick up the pace and pick up the pace the right decition? it’s very hard to get that right for us guys who are running a marathon as a challange. I know “they” say that it is good to aim at running negitive splits, but that isn’t for mosy people and even splits are a better thing to aim at. A friend always says: If you feel good at 5miles hold back, if you feel good at 10miles, hold back. If you feel good at 15 miles hold back, if you feel good at 20miles, you’ve got it, HOLD back, if you feel good at 25miles, then you can go… A marathon is a long way.

    You say you took a gel at 12 miles, was that your first? Why didn’t you take one at 6 miles (every 6 miles)?

    Enough question, time to move on and look to the next one…
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  7. I don’t think you need to feel bad about writing an angry post with your body. You have every right to be upset and down for it not performing the way you wanted it to.
    I keep coming back to your posts about your blood cell count (I think that’s what it was) and all the attempts that you (and the doctors) made to get your count back up. Could that have any affect on you? Maybe pushing the faster pace that far could be the cause?
    But I also know that you did that 22 miler – with miles at MP+15 AND at MP so I’m not sure. UGH. NOT knowing, I think, is the frustrating part. You didn’t start too quick, clearly. Maybe fueling?
    I am so sorry you had a back race after you put in so much time and energy training (and training hard) for this. Maybe find another one in a few weeks and try again?
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  8. HOw frustrating! You did have amazing training, funny (or not) how our bodies can betray us like that. I wish I had some great words of wisdom, it takes such a lot of heart and soul and time to train for a marathon and then it all comes down to such a short time of running. You know you have it in you to run an amazing marathon and the legs don’t go there. Hugs.
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  9. ugh. I’m sorry to read this. Marathons used to piss me off for just this reason. All that training for one day and if your body decided to be a jerk, you were screwed. It’s like there’s that stupid day when you go for a run and nothing feels right, you wonder why you run at all, and then two days later you feel like a rock star. But the nothing right day happens to fall on marathon day.

    I understand the frustration. You are way faster than the last two times.

    You know how I feel about the marathon, so this suggestion won’t shock you: take a season off from the marathon. You went from injury to marathon training, to marathon training. I always hold in the back of my mind that marathon training makes you slow. Even if you are doing the speed work, those long runs are slow, and if you’re training for short distances, those long runs are faster than that slow, so you’re just doing a lot more turnover. I know its not what you want to do, we’re not getting any younger, but I think maybe getting your leg speed back and not going through the beat up of a marathon, then a recovery, then more marathon training might be just the ticket!

    Also, I’m dying over here from allergies, could that be some of the cause??

    I have faith that before we know it, you’ll be posting a “I ROCKED that Mutha OUT!” report!!! DON’T LET THIS GET YOU DOWN, YOU ARE A GREAT RUNNER!!! I’m sending you “feel good” vibes!
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  10. awww man sister friend I hear ya. This sounds like my year before last…I couldn’t figure out what was wrong and honestly I didn’t change a damn thing but suddenly the races started going my way again.

    I really feel for you, I know how frustrating this is. But I agree with all those awesome comments before me that you will now show all of us who have hit a slump how to move forward from it and rock it out.
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  11. Ugh. I’m sorry. I am sad the race I know you have inside of you did not happen. The fact that there is no apparent reason is even more frustrating. With my own running I like to think that every experience is there to teach me something. I’m wishing you peace and understanding with this one. I know it’s a tough one to swallow. Big hugs my friend.
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  12. I hopped onto your race report via Form Before Footwear.

    I think when we have bad experiences feeling down and angry is natural — but for me I give it a timeline. I allow myself to wallow for XX amount of time, then draw a line under it and move forward – either starting the process of recreating and examining what went wrong, experimenting with how to change things that went wrong so they don’t again, or just signing up for or focusing on the next challenge I set myself.

    And remember – you are the only one who has called yourself a crackpot. The rest of us here? We just like cheering on good effort and being motivated by those who set goals and work toward them. Bravo for giving it your all!
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  13. That just sucks. Sorry.
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  14. Sorry it didn’t go as planned. While I do enjoy the marathon(sometimes), my true love is the half marathon. It seems to fit me better and does not kill me in the end plus you still need to really train hard to do well in it.
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  15. Oh, I’m so sorry, Amanda. You deserved a good one and are entitled to some public anger. If it’s any consolation, the superb training IS still there to rebuild upon. Be nice to yourself the next few days. I’ve been there and feel your pain.

  16. UGH… I’m so sorry! It sounded like your training had been stellar and then to have put ALL that work in and to have it all blow up on race day really sucks. Big time. End of story. I feel for you lady, I really do…. :-/

  17. I’m sorry to hear this race didn’t go as planned. Your training leading up to it was amazing- it must be frustrating.
    At least you are seasoned and see the silver lining in having friends and family there to cheer you on.
    Hang in there. You are an incredible inspiration to all your readers!
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  18. So sorry your race didn’t go as planned.

    Your family waiting for you at the finish line is so special and… priceless. Although the race wasn’t what you had hoped for, there was something amazing waiting for you at the finish! Love…love of family xo
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  19. Amanda – so sorry to hear the race didn’t go as planned. Keep your head up – you are a great runner.
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  20. Grrrrr that darn marathon!!! I’m so sorry to hear how it went! I was hoping this was going to be your one….I’m sure you were too! I don’t blame you one bit for looking for an apology letter from your body! You worked so hard. I know it will come one day for you! Thank heaven for family to pick us up when we can’t do it for ourselves!! HUGS!!
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  21. Somedays our body just says “no”, most the time, it happens while training, and we write it off as a bad day or run. It is a racers worse fear when it happens on race day and it magnifies ten hold on that day. Even though it didnt go as plan, you finished, that alone speaks volumes of your toughness.
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  22. Ugh. So sorry! How frustrating….I totally think your body needs to send you flowers and a letter of apology. Hope the next one is better!!

  23. Bummer! Especially after training, so hard to do poorly — maybe it’s a mental thing? That seems unlikley though.
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  24. You have every right to be angry. I have no words of advice. That freaking sucks the big one. Hugs friend!
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  25. I’m sorry friend. I know i can relate, and so can my husband. He calls it a bad day at the office. we all have them and we don’t know why. Maybe you need a mind rest?
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  26. So sorry it wasn’t the race you were hoping for. I’ve definitely had a half where I was so sure I was trained and ready and then just something breaks down. And maybe that’s even more frustrating when you can’t figure it all out. The body and mind just aren’t working in sync that day? But, I love that you are trying to find that positive perspective at least. Friends cheering you on (and making it across the line)…well, hard not to smile about that.
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  27. I am so sorry it didn’t go as planned, and I can sympathize with the anger. I say, let it out to make you feel better :)
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  28. Bummer! I am sure it would be easier to have an answer for the bonk.
    I spent my weekend with a GI bug at St Mary’s … began after arriving. Friends drove my son to the meet each day, and texted me his times, while I threw up at the hotel. Good times.

  29. It’s so understandable to be frustrated and angry! We train so hard and so long for that one day. We can never know what to expect and that can be good or bad. I can totally relate, I think anyone who’s run a marathon for time can. I’m not sure there are any answers though. I think sometimes it’s just not our day. The last marathon I ran I felt fine right up until the start. The minute I started running, I knew I was off. No signs at all going in. It’s so frustrating especially when you know how far you have to run. Hang in there. All we can hope for is a better day next time!
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  30. No one knows what kind of a runner they will be on marathon day. There’s so much involved. There are the things we can control and those we can’t. But there are so many more positives than just a bad race time. 1. You’re not injured. 2. You finished 3. There will be so many more GOOD races 4…..well, you know there are so many more.
    Forget this race and move on. You’ll have your day.
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  31. That stinks!! If only there was a perfect formula for a great race. I mean, how is it that you can have great training and do everything right and still the race stinks? Hope you’re feeling better soon! Hang in there.
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  32. :( I know how much it stinks when things do go as we hope. Try to remember that things will go well again, we’re never in a funk forever. Right now it seems you are at a place of still trying to figure out the specifics. I read through all the comments and there were some ideas worth considering, but of course none of us can know for sure. I think if anything, it means it is time to change up strategies. I don’t think any runner can run the same forever, our bodies change in ways we don’t always understand, so we’re often back at the drawing board. It’s part of any sport. Pamper yourself for a while and regroup when you are ready. You know during training runs what works well for you so the answer cannot be too far off. Many hugs and please know, you are such an inspiration!
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  33. That. is. the. absolute…worst in the running world. I’m sorry to hear about the less than perfect race. The good news is you’ve had good races before, and you’ll have them again! Hang in there….
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  34. Damn! So frustrating! I really feel for you Amanda because I know there is a great race inside of you – I’m really sorry. Glad you had your family and friends there for you. Hang in there!
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  35. i’m so sorry. we’ve all been there. marathons are fickle bi&^hes. i hate when there is no rhyme or reason – you get no closure whatsoever.

    when this happens to me, i run an ultra or run a marathon for fun. totally do something different. the pressure to race and perform all the time gets to me after awhile and i need a break.
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  36. I wish I had a snippet of advice tat would explain everything, but unfortunately we are a slave to internal factors we cannot predict.It sucks.
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  37. sorry to hear you had a rough day. the marathon has been like this for me in the past several years as well, so i decided for myself the best option at this time is to back off that distance. it’s just too frustrating and draining physically, mentally, and emotionally for me to take on at this stage in my life. sounds like maybe you should mix it up and try some different distances to make sure your heart is in the right place, mine wasn’t and i didn’t realize that until i stopped trying to power forward. your situation i’m sure is completely different than mine, but maybe your body just wants some time away from that hefty distance.

    keep your head up and don’t stop believing! all good things come with hard work, a bit of patience, and time! maybe the timing isn’t now for you, but that doesn’t mean it won’t be in the future! hope you’re enjoying some rest lady!
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  38. Sorry to hear that things didn’t go as you had hoped. This sounds so much like my experience at Richmond in November — I pressed the gas pedal, but there was no gas. The important thing is knowing at the end that there are bigger things in life. You can’t dwell on this or it’ll just make the next experience even worse.
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  39. I’m sorry about your marathon :-( but you are still amazzzzzzzing. Sometimes it’s just not our day no matter how perfect it seems….it just stinks when it’s such a long race that takes so much out of you. Take a break & recover & just keep running for fun & it’ll happen!!!!

  40. Ughhhh. Hate when races don’t pan out the way we expect them to. Obviously you know your body best and what you are capable of and it’s so frustrating when race day doesn’t reflect all the hard training that was poured into the past several months.

    Maybe you could take a brief break from fulls and focus on HM’s or other distances until you are ready? Just to clear your head and give your body a break. I’m sure you will run a better marathon when the time is right.
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  41. I wish I had some magically comforting words to offer, but I feel how sucky it was for you through your words :( I know for me, reading about someone’s attempts/disappointments, is all helpful and makes you human. We’ve all had races that are great or crappy or somewhere in between, so I would guess that most reading this are nodding in acknowledgement.

    I guess what I’m saying is, continue to be your awesome self and continue to write the good, bad, and the ugly. I hope for you more good, but we’re sticking with you :)
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  42. *hug* sometimes that’s all that can be done.
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  43. I hate this for you!!! Everything about it SUCKS!!! I know how hard you trained and all the preparing and planning and effort that went into this race – you have every right to be angry!
    I have so much respect for you (and all marathon runners) – the time alone that you put into this is incredible!!!
    I know it means nothing and changes nothing but – I’m sorry!
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  44. I’m sorry it did not go as you wanted or expected. That does stink. It’s difficult to work so hard for something and then have it not work out the way you wanted. Take the time rest. Let your body recover.

  45. Just like Van Morrison sang it….there’ll be days like this. The hardest part is the time spent molding that day for so long and expecting the best when the worst comes to rear it’s ugly head. My best races always come at the most unexpected times. I look back on my PR’s and I can find little rhyme or reason as to why in 80% of them. Chin up though, you have lots to be thankful for! Two legs that run! :) We’re all proud of you no matter what the outcome!
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  46. So sorry Amanda. I know that had to have been frustrating. Hoping that you will be able to find some rhyme or reason. Big hugs.
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  47. I would be angry, too! Your training definitely proves you can do it… it is especially frustrating when there is no obvious reason for what went on. I’m frustrated for you. But you still ran a marathon, which is always a huge accomplishment, and as you said, in the big things, you are blessed. Hope your body gives you that apology. :)
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  48. Sorry to hear that it didnt go so well. Sometimes we put way to much pressure on ourselves. You did awesome in my book you finished, of course it wasnt the way you planned it, but their is always the next race. Just a thought but maybe your body is trying to tell you something.

    My motto if I cant have fun running any race than I probably shouldnt run anymore. Marathons are hard and I want to enjoy them not kill myself.

    Sending you GOOD VIBES.

  49. I’m so sorry that the race didn’t go as planned. I know there’s nothing I can say to make it better but I know you’re going to figure out what’s causing the bad races and learn from it and come back even stronger. I hope it’s soon because you deserve a great race!
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  50. Although you have a justified right to feel mucho disappointed, if it matters at all, you are a hero in my book. You are full of amazing and all that good stuff.

    “Even worse is that I feel like a crackpot.” Which is much better than feeling like a crackHEAD. Right? xo
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  51. So sorry to hear about this, especially since your training had been going so well. You definitely seemed very strong leading up to the race, I can’t understand what happened either. I agree with some of the comments above – maybe it’s best to take a break and get yourself some distance from racing (esp marathons). Take care.
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  52. You deserve to be angry and frustrated. Shoot, I’m frustrated for you! To have such a great training cycle only to met with disappointment on race day. I want to thank you for sharing your marathon journey with us openly and not sugar coating it, because you are helping others of us out here who may be going through similar challenging circumstances. Also, I was just wondering while reading through your post about how your iron levels have been.
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  53. I’d be bummed and angry and frustrated, too! I’m really sorry that your race experience and your race time weren’t what you wanted them to be. I have no words of wisdom or advice, as you’re a much more experienced runner than I am. I know that you will run a marathon soon, though, where your body will play nice and your hard work in training will pay off!
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  54. Oh man I am sorry! I’d be angry too, that’s how I feel my last few marathons have gone as well. Sucks. Well I guess that is what keeps up coming back, right?
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  55. No sugarcoating here: this plain old sucks. It makes no sense and I’m equally as frustrated. I bonked hard at mile 10 of a marathon once, and it was surprising, painful, slow, and disappointing (finished in 5:12) despite all that training. I appreciate hearing your positive spin on the perspective you have over the whole thing, but you certainly deserve to take the time to be upset. Again, I’m real sorry Amanda.
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  56. Sorry the race didn’t go as planned, especially since your training went so awesome. Hoping you can find some answers. Glad you had your amazing support system there with you:)
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  57. Catherine says:

    I just read a great book dr phil maffetone. ‘The big book of endurance training and racing’
    Its a different perspevtive on training. You may find it interesting.

  58. I know exactly this feeling! It has happened to me in EVERY marathon. I train, I work hard, I do great in my training and long runs and then, boom mile 22 in a race, it’s all over. I know what your feeling. You are capable!! You had a bad day!! I pray to God this does not happen to me in Boston, but you never know. That blasted 26.2 is a bastard!
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  59. First off…thanks for being honest about the experience. Not every event can be perfect. I totally feel your frustration and disappointment and I know there’s not much I can say to make you feel better about it. Just know that we all have these experiences. The next race is YOURS!!
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  60. Darn! sorry you had that happen AGAIN. Hmm.

    I don’t find your posts silly at all….this is how we learn. I think we will all learn something really useful once you figure this out.

    I will think on this too and maybe have some questions for you ;)
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  61. Well, that just sucks. I’d be angry, too. I’m sorry you had a crappy race, and hopefully you can leave it behind soon.
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  62. I feel your frustration. It is really hard when we have that bad run day on race day. Especially when that happens more than once. Hopefully you can figure out what the issue is soon!
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  63. I think its perfectly fine to be angry. You worked HARD. i wish I had some answers for you, but I don’t. Instead I just wanted to say vent away and we understand.
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  64. Angry post is more than justified. It shows how much you care. Like I said, all that hard work and training is not wasted – it is still in you – and now you can build on it and cash in on it another time. We are all still way proud of you! Hugs!
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  65. dang! after reading about your training (which is seems similar to mine) I thought for sure you’d kill it. How is your iron? Are you still doing the “no-fuel” running? Do you think that mile 12 might have been too long to wait to start fueling? Did your coach have a fueling plan for you? I’m just putting out some questions I would be asking myself. I know what it’s like to not perform as well as you think you can…I have had plenty a ‘pity parties’ Hang in there!
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  66. You absolutely and completely have every right to feel angry and frustrated. I’m frustrated for you and wish that I could find an answer for you!! I know that there really isn’t anything that I can say that will make things better but know that there are so many of us who are rooting for you and totally and completely believe in you. I don’t read these recaps and think your nuts. I see so much passion and dedication. You continue to inspire me to keep at it and keep running.
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  67. I can imagine how hard this must have been for you. SO frustrating and I’m sorry to hear it. You will come back around, no doubt. And of course it always takes time and distance to see why/what we learned. Wishing you the best for the next race or endeavor. Keep your head up!
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  68. I’m sorry you’re not feeling so great after the race. I can completely understand where you’re coming from because you spend a lot of hard work and time training. Sometimes our bodies don’t give us what we want but just know that you put in the work needed to get the result you wanted and maybe it was just something going on that day. Regardless of your time you still inspire others more than you ever know ;)
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  69. I have no doubt along with all your readers, that you will rebound from this. Your training is stellar and will make a difference in the future!! :) Always inspired by you Amanda.
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  70. I’m so sorry that it didn’t pan out as you’d hoped for. It sometimes just feels like there’s absolutely no reason for a bad race when all the training’s gone so very well. But there usually is something and I hope you can find that something so you know how to avoid it next time.
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  71. Oh man. That is no good. You are an experienced runner to know that some days you just don’t have it. It sucks major to have that day be on race day. Any thoughts to find a quick marathon a few weeks away? Give it a go again knowing that you are trained and ready to go at it again?

    I feel for you. I know how disappointing it can be when you feel like you are trained perfectly. My only thought is that maybe you are placing too much pressure on having the perfect race. I want to tell you to race more, but I know that isn’t your cup of tea.
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  72. I’m so sorry about your race experience. That sucks! I know we are no where close in speed, and I know that really doesn’t matter. When you train and then have a bad race it can be heart breaking and frustrating no matter what anyone says. Yes, you should be happy with many things, but it’s ok to feel frustrated. I hope you can figure out what’s going wrong because I know you are a fantastic runner and you have so much more in you!
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  73. I’m so sorry it didn’t go well Amanda. That really sucks and I totally feel for you. Good for you though pushing through and finishing.
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  74. Boo. I’m sorry, Amanda. You worked so hard for this race. I hope you figure out what’s going on.
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  75. I’m beginning to realize the beauty of the marathon beast is its unpredictability in all respects including circumstances beyond our control, and how we respond . I’ve slogged through several super tough ones lately with conditions way more dire than what I (or anyone else) expected. I did not do nearly as well as I hoped to. But I did it. Am glad for that even if I thought I’d do better. Now on to the next. Hopes spring eternal (and trying to go with the flow and not be disappointed if it does not happen as I’d like). Not easy. Supporting each other in the journey helps. Hang in there.

  76. I hate to be just one more person to say “I am sorry” but I am. It sucks when your body feels like it isn’t run by you and when it feels weaker than you know it is. But what does matter is that you know you’re an athlete and that this one race does not depict that abilities you have.

    Have you read the book Gym Minds? it has been really helpful for me on the mental side of training. I love it.
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  77. I’ve been thinking about you!! I knew it wasn’t the best news if you hadn’t shared it earlier and all I can really say is that I am truly, truly sorry. I hope your coach is sitting down with you and helping you cope and figuring out what’s going on.

    Big, big hugs to you, my friend. Email me (or I will you) soon.
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  78. ok so this is my third time reading and I havent commented sine Im not a runners runner :-)
    but Ive been thinking about you.
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  79. I’m sorry for your disappointment!
    But could it be that your body is trying to tell you something? And that it will keep repeating what it is trying to tell you until you take heed?
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  80. I know how hard it can be. It’s harder when we don’t know why. I am my own worst critic, always have been and always will be. I spend a lot of time beating myself up for things, but its harder when I don’t know what to beat myself up for.

    You may not have gotten the time you wanted, and you feel mad at your body (It damn well should write you an apology letter), but I love your attitude about bigger things. You have a family and so many other things to be grateful for. That wont take away the disappointment you feel, but having a support system like that will help you move forward sooner.
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  81. I’m right there with you. It sucks when your training all goes according to plan and then on race day it’s like you never put in those long freakin runs where your body was like “We own this shiz.” I definitely couldn’t tell you why that happens, but it’s happened to a lot of us. Be mad…for now. Then get even. That marathon SOB will know fear when you’re ready to kick it’s butt next time. ;)

  82. Oh wow, I’m so sorry to see such disapointment in your post. I was so hoping this would be YOUR race… you totally deserve it.

    -My non-expert opinion/advice is that the dead legs are caused by lack of nutrients. I remember you said you were low in iron and basically had been told by the Dr. that unless you gave up running you would remain low in iron… that makes a huge difference. Have you ever seen a wholistic nutrionist or a kineseoligist/nutritionist? My kinesiologist has helped me figure out why I was chronically severely low in potassium and iron. The problem is now resolved and I am AMAZED how much better my body performs and how much better I feel now that the proper nutrients are there and able to do their job. Hope you figure it all out soon!

  83. So sorry Amanda….I can relate to this…for me it is not full marathon but the general picture is the same. I am also mad at my body and I am tired of writing race recap that are not hmmm positive… Here’s to hoping we will both figure stuff out !!
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  84. I am so sorry! I feel your pain. Out of 7 marathons, I have hit my goal twice. When you figure it out, i will be eager to read.

    You are correct, though…you do have the important things in life figured out.

    Hugs coming your way
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  85. Prairie Runner says:

    Ugh! Sorry to hear that! So frustrating to work so hard and then have your body betray you!!! It is so hard to figure it out – how can training go well and then the actual marathon suck? I had that happen last year – I was cruising along doing very well until mile 13and then the wheels started coming off! It was a downward spiral from there. A positive to gain from that type of experience is that you are mentally stronger for having finished such a tough run!!! Rest, relax, and get back out there!

  86. Marathons can be real Mother-F**ckers can’t they?! BLAH! Sorry darling. You are still a rockstar in my eyes!! xoxox
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  87. Sorry to hear that the race didn’t go as you had hoped. It really sucks when you put in the training, race conditions are good, and then something goes wrong anyway.
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  88. I wish I had some insight of what could be wrong… but I do not. I am sorry the past races have not gone the way you would like. And you have every right to be frustrated…. you put in a lot of hard work and deserve the race you worked for. I really think it will come!

  89. I am so sorry to hear this! Can we blame Evil P?! I’ve been there. I don’t feel like I’ve had a good one since my first. There are just so many variables that need to go right on marathon morning to have that race you deserve. It could be so many things. UGH. But, one of these days it will all line up and be soooo worth it! Chin up, lady!
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  90. i’m so sorry it didn’t go as planned. I must’ve missed this on twitter. hugs. i hope you get a redemption race soon.
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  91. I have never, ever looked at my watch while running a marathon – or any other race. I don’t give a toss what my watch says, my body knows a lot better than my watch what pace I should be running at. I listen to my body, click my watch, without looking at it, at every mile, then feed the data into my computer to analyze AFTER the race. My body has rarely been wrong and I won my age category in seven of my eight marathons. Now there’s something for you to consider in your next marathon. People rely far too much on their electronic gadgets and disregard what their bodies are trying to tell them.
    Nevertheless, we’ll done on completing yet another marathon, something I could never again do to my satisfaction.

  92. You know what makes you a great person and a great blogger? You are honest. You are human. Damn, sometimes I hate being human. chin up. :)

  93. Keep at it. Persistence always pays off!

  94. So sorry Amanda :( I don’t know why when we train perfectly our bodies just don’t put out on race day, but I have full confidence you will get where you want to be and score your PR.
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