It’s been a week and a half since I saw my PT and made the decision to back off on activities to get these feet back in line. I’ve seen some decent improvement–no pain at night, no pain when walking, etc. But I still get the occasional ache, especially in the right cuboid bone, which tells me I can’t start my official pain-free countdown yet.
Even worse, today my daughter wanted to do a 3-mile bike ride on the local paths. Now, I’m not supposed to be on a bike until I am pain free for 2-4 weeks, but I figured what harm could come of a short ride at little girl pace? Well, I could feel both feet off and on throughout that ride, which means harm can come from it. This ride not only hurt my feet, but my heart as well; we did it on one of my favorite short running loops.
The not being able to do a very short, easy bike ride with one of my kids, or take a hike with them, or any number of things with them, is probably what has kept me from healing completely.Because nine times out of 10, I do it. Even more than not running, it really sucks the spirit out of me when I can’t be active with my family. But, I’ve got to force myself to step back from these activities; from walking the dog; from spending any real time mobile. It kills me.
Even worse–now I’m trying to figure out if I want to double boot myself. The doctors have always said this was overkill–I am “only” dealing with low-grade stress reactions. But I did some of it over the summer and it seemed to help. But I hate the double boots, and here are the stupid, embarrassing reasons why:
- People find it incredibly funny to see you this way. I know it looks ridiculous, and I can laugh at myself about it also, most of the time. But you know what, it really sucks to walk around that way.
- People are incredibly unsympathetic to an injury like this–it’s just a dumb runner who hurt herself. Yep, I brought this injury on myself with my stupidity, but it doesn’t help to have people blatantly convey this. A more “glamorous” injury–a torn muscle, a “real” broken bone–earns lots more sympathy from folks.
- The boots hurt other parts as well–plantar fasciitis starts to rear its head, other little aches and pains appear from having your feet frozen in place.
- And ok, a little humor here–but can fracture boots get any further from my minimalist philosophy?
- I KNOW I shouldn’t care about most of this stuff, but I do.
|Double fracture boots, anyone?|
So there–I’m really laying out my insecurities to you. I haven’t fully committed to doing this boot thing yet. But I really, really need to get better. I missed Boston last year for my ITBS and I don’t want to miss it this year. Much longer and it becomes a not so unrealistic prospect that I won’t be there again. Even more so, however, I need running and a healthy lifestyle back for my soul.
What would you do–boots or no?